oh so COLD COLD COLD!!!

(When I first intended to write this, it was coming 2 weeks to the day of a previous blog that I wrote entitled oh so HOT HOT HOT!!! It has been about 3 weeks since I wrote that entry, and it is no longer cold but oh so hot again. This blog has no relevance whatsoever than to point out the fact that I complain too much about some things and that I should be careful what I wish for.)
Ok, so 2 weeks ago I was complaining how hot and humid it was, so much to the point that I was drinking gallons of ice water, I had all of the windows open, and still was unable to fall asleep on account of the heat. There was nothing that I could do to solve the heat wave crisis. How I wish I had never opened my mouth and complained about the heat because now I wish that it would come back. Weather.com tells me that it is "41 degrees F, feels like 34 degrees F" versus 71 degrees 2 weeks ago. Now I'm no scientist or anything, but I think that 34 is a rather low number and it sure as hell feels like cold outside to me. I tried to open the window to get some fresh air in the apartment, but couldn't because it was frozen shut! Ok, so I lie about that but I couldn't stand to have the cold air come into my peaceful world. So I shut myself away from the outdoors and settled in for a good, warm night's sleep. Now that I know not to complain about the weather here in Wisconsin because it varies so frequently, I'm going to continue to complain about the weather here in Wisconsin because I don't learn from my mistakes.

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update on my life

Two months ago (on April 2) I posted some rather interesting comments about my situation at the time, which led to a bit of concern from the people who care for me and some random people who offered their thoughts on my state of emotions. Thanks to all who took the time to try and make me put it in perspective and make me realize that I'm not a bad person, I'm just a little uncertain about my life and maybe a bit too stressed out. There were many factors that played a part in this emotional outburst, from school, to my living situation, turning 24 and having no purpose in life, uncertainty about my future, financial difficulties, loneliness, etc. I'm one of those people who internalizes their problems and has no way of working them out until one day BOOM - like a volcano I just loose it and usually do something stupid. I've never really been too stressed out about anything because I always thought that all of those things really didn't have any effect on me, and I could just go on living without dealing with my problems. Things are a bit better now, I'm most likely going to finish this semester with A's in both of my classes, am financially stable at least for now, goin to talk with my academic advisor and set a plan for graduation, and most importantly I am going to be moving out of where I live now and am finally going to have my own bedroom and a space that I can claim as my own. I think that is a pretty big factor because everyone needs a place to go to get away from everything and just chill out and relax and take some time to figure out how to handle the situation. For 1 1/2 years I haven't had that luxury, so I taken to internalizing these difficulties when they arrive. I also started taking a look into Internet dating websites, trying to find someone out there for me. If you happen to come across this and have used them yourself, or know someone else who has, toss me a line at pookon@hotmail.com and give me some advice.

- pookon -

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random thoughts and observations

money - who in the hell decided that money was so damn important? If you don't have it, you are frowned upon and stepped on by those who do, and if you do have it you are frowned upon and ridiculed by those who don't. It's a vicious never ending cycle, the more money you have, the more you want and you will keep going because you will never be satisfied because there will always be someone with more. Whatever happened to surrounding yourself with good friends and family?

big words - I hate it when people use big words just to sound important. They most often will incorrectly use them or use them for the sole purpose of convincing you that they are more intelligent than you are. Their incoherent self-righteous wrongdoings unjustly land them in quite an interesting debacle. When countless generations mercilessly abandon all sense of individualistic thought and subscribe to the wrongful logic of their predecessors, it rarely results in good fortune for every party involved in process. Nevertheless, it irrevocably fails to change the beliefs, attitudes and eventual demise of said individuals partaking in such reckless abandonment.

scan-tron tests - does abbacadabba actually work?

living in debt - it's inevitable in today's society because the price of living is so high that no one can afford to exist anymore because everything is so expensive. Most people need to work 2 jobs just to make ends meet. Student loans, credit cards, car payments, rent, bills, food, an eventual mortgage, then paying for the kid's college? Screw this, I'm going to a deserted island so I can live as a hermit.

Boston Tea Party - sounds like a great time. Why didn't I receive an invitation? I wonder if they played pin the tail on the donkey and had cake and ice cream. I wonder what the treat bags would have been like...

being busy - remember the good ol' days when you could curl up with a good book beside a nice warm fire? Me neither, because I've been too busy being busy. When I'm not at work or work or work, I'm somewhere else that requires me to be there. Geez, even God took a day off after creating existence. I'm lucky to squeeze in a 15 minute break.

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Oh and by the by, happy birthday to me on this day (May 6) as I celebrate 24 years of life.