Wednesday, November 28, 2012

The Drive to Stay Alive - Ep 5 - A Walk in the Jurassic Park

I love the movie Jurassic Park. To this day it is still one of my most memorable theater going experiences. When it came out in the Summer of 1993 I was 12 years old. Shit, was I really 12 years old when that movie came out? Damn now I feel old. The reason why it was so memorable was because this movie scared the shit out of me while at the same time making my childhood and current dreams (because I was still technically a child) come true because I was obsessed with dinosaurs. When all of the other kids wanted to be firefighters, doctors and astronauts, I wanted to be a paleontologist. Dinosaurs fascinated me because they were so gigantic and they represented a world unlike the one that we were a part of. What would have happened if the meteor didn't crash into Earth 65 million years ago and the dinosaurs survived? Would humans have even been able to evolve into the dominant species on this planet or would dinosaurs have reigned supreme? It's a tough question and one that we fortunately don't have to answer. But the night before I recorded this episode I watched the Jurassic Park Trilogy (yes, even the 3rd one which many people consider to be an abomination) so one could say that I had dinosaurs on the brain during this drive to and from work. But that's a good thing because it is a break from the norm where I have been talking about real life shit. Every now and then you have to break up the serious with a little silly talk like dinosaurs. So listen below if you want to hear what I have to say about these terrible lizards.



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I'm a really big fan of this movie series and especially The Lost World. There's something about the Ian Malcolm character so expertly portrayed by Jeff Goldblum that I just love. The biggest mistake that the series made is suffering the fate of so many trilogies and ending on an incredibly weak note. Jurassic Park III was doomed to fail as soon as the script was not based on a Michael Crichton novel and Steven Spielberg decided not to return to the director's chair. When you are missing those 2 elements (excellent source material and one of the greatest director's of this current film generation) you might as well just abandon the project. But the Jurassic Park series, like life, finds a way to carry on. And although this episode doesn't really follow any of the themes that I have laid down over the first few episodes it was what was on my mind that morning and evening as I was driving to and from work. I do want to use this podcast as a way to talk out my thoughts and feelings and hopefully correct my life, but that fact of the matter is that my life is so screwed up that talking about dinosaurs kind of makes sense. I don't really know how to explain it and at this time I am unable to provide a plausible connection between the Jurassic Park movies and where I went wrong in life nor am I able to make a connection with how these films will help me to set my life back on the path towards success. Look, I have no idea what I am doing here, but isn't that what life is all about? Show me someone who has it all figured out and I will show you someone who is living a lie. Nothing makes sense in life and we're all just wandering around trying to figure this shit out. And that my friends, is chaos.

 - pookon -

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Sunday, November 25, 2012

The Drive to Stay Alive - Ep 4 - Nana Nana, Nana Nana, Hey Hey, Goodbye

My Nana (grandmother), Marilyn Kurutz died on November 9th 2012. That's a rather blunt way to say it but I didn't want to bury the lead. A better way to say it would have been called back to God's Kingdom because she was a devote Christian and prayed every single day of her life. She was such an amazing person and I owe so much of my life to her because whether or not she knew it, she had a huge influence on my upbringing. I can't even begin to explain how my character, morals, values in life and general behaviors have been shaped by the lessons she explicitly and implicitly taught me throughout life. Nana was the glue that held this family together and ever since she had surgery to remove a brain tumor she was never the same. When she came out of surgery she was no longer the woman I grew up loving because she had changed. It was a real hard concept to deal with at the time but the one thing that it did give me was time to deal with her death. She had been slowly dying for the last 3 years. While it is really sad to see her go I know that she was a prisoner in her own body because she was unable to speak, smile or care for others like she had done for all of my life. Now that she is free of her mortal body that trapped her recently she is free to care for everyone both in Heaven and on Earth. She used to tell me that she prayed for me every day. While I'm sure that I did enough wrong to warrant those prayers I always felt a sense of calm because I had an "in" with Jesus when it was my time to answer to the Lord. But now that she is up there cooking up Nana Meals for Timmy and everyone else I know that she will welcome me with a big Nana hug when it is my time to move on to the next world. Listen by clicking below as I try to sort out my feelings surrounding the death of one of the most special people that I have had the honor of knowing.



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There's not a whole lot I can say that I haven't already said in this episode. I don't like to complain much because I realize that I have it better than so many other people in this world. I have 2 parents who love me, a family filled with the most amazing people in the world, an older brother who I've always looked up to and wanted nothing more than to be just like, a sister that is my best friend and the most hilarious person ever and a little brother who had so much talent whose attitude and smile was infectious. On top of that I have 2 jobs, a place of my own, a working car, a wonderful although mischievous cat Korben Dallas and so more friends than I can keep track of. That having been said over the last year and a half I have had to deal with the death of my Brother, my Grandpa (my Dad's Father) and now my Nana (my Mom's Mother). It's been a really rough time because every funeral reminds me of the one that hurt the most (Timmy). But death is a part of life so remind yourself every day that the clock is ticking. We only have a finite amount of time on this planet so do yourself a favor and make the most out of it. Life isn't about things. It's about people. I choose to spend my time with the people that I care about the most. I miss the people who are no longer here like Timmy, Grandpa and Nana but I know that I made the most of the time that I spent with them while they were here. At least I can live without those regrets. But it's really hard to live without those people. But I'm doing it. With every single day I exist to create new memories and hopefully pass on the lessons that those people taught me. Maybe that's my reason to keep on living.

 - pookon -

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Friday, November 16, 2012

"25 Brewers in 25 Days" - 2012 Recap - Overall

The 2012 Milwaukee Brewers Season can't really be summed up in a few words or quick sentences but I'll try. As far as words go these ones seem to fit: inconstant, pitching, scuffle, tease, struggle, maddening, disappointing, encouraging, hopeful, mind-numbing and frustrating. Here's a couple of phrases that I have picked out: what could have been, too little too late, fatal flaw and positive outlook for the future. I'm not going to go into detail as to why I picked those words or phrases out but if you watched the Brewers this year then you know exactly they describe the season. If you weren't a faithful viewer or you checked out at some point I'll try to drop some hints along the way as to why those words or phrases mean something. I'll get more into depth in the next month or so when I feature the offense and pitching in separate articles where I can break it down by player and compare my 2012 predictions to their 2012 final statistics. All in due time but let's address a couple of things right off the bat here.

Here's what worked. I said that the offense wasn't going to be a problem in 2012 and when all was said and done it wasn't. The Brewers led the NL with 202 Homeruns but also proved that they could play some small ball by leading the NL with 158 Stolen Bases. They were 5th in the NL in On Base Percentage and 1st in Hit by Pitches, which led to them leading the NL in RBIs with 741. That's a lot of offense man. Sure they got off to a very slow start and it hurt that Aramis Ramirez didn't heat up until June and Corey Hart didn't find his stride until a permanent switch to 1st base was made, but even in the early months of the season the offense wasn't really losing them games. The Starting pitching   for the most part kept them in games long enough to win. They were 9th in the NL in ERA and were 2nd in the NL with 875 strikeouts (the pitching staff as a whole would lead the NL with 1402 strikeouts). They suffered through injuries (Chris Narveson), winless starts (Marco Estrada) and trades (Zack Greinke) but newcomers like Mike Fiers, Mark Rodgers and Wily Peralta really stepped up and gave us hope for the future. I'll get more in depth on that as well as a couple of other surprises like Carlos Gomez putting together a quality season, the shortstop of the future Jean Segura and the best catching duo in Jonathon Lucroy and Martin Maldonado that I've ever seen. So stay tuned to the blog for those articles.

Here's what didn't work. This was probably the worst Brewers bullpen I have ever seen, and I have sat through some really rough years. It's hard to imagine that the entire bullpen would all have a bad year but that's what happened in 2012. You can't put all of the blame on Axford although it's easy to do because blown saves in the 9th tend to sting a little harder. But KRod, Manny Parra, Kameron Loe and Jose Veras all blew their fair amount of games outside of the 9th inning. There wasn't even one reliable arm in the bullpen that Manager Ron Roenicke could trust at any given moment so he was left with very few options. And yes, one of those options was the legendary Tim Dillard who was able to further his legend with every pitching appearance. Rickie Weeks and Nyjer Morgan, the primary set-up men for Braun and Ramierz, were just awful in 2012. There's this saying that the Brewers offense goes as Rickie Weeks goes and in the first half of the season Weeks wasn't going anywhere. His batting average dropped as low as .152 and when he rebounded in the 2nd half the offense rebounded with him. That's weird how it works. Nyjer Morgan and Tony Plush must have gone away on holiday because they weren't around in 2012. They lost playing time to Carlos Gomez and Norichika Aoki and served mainly as a pinch hitter in the 2nd half of the season. Morgan as you know was one of the biggest reasons why the Brewers were so successful in 2011 both on and off the field as his antics kept the club loose and helped them to have fun. Without Tony Tombstone and Tony Clutch, the offense struggled at times. Injuries. You can't predict injuries happening but you can have depth at the Major and Minor league to not allow it to affect your team. With a payroll around $100 million and a minor league system empty at the AAA level, they weren't equipped to deal with the losses of Chris Narveson, Alex Gonzalez and Mat Gamel. By the time the starting rotation stabilized with Mike Fiers, Wily Peralta and Mark Rodgers, Jean Segura settled into shortstop following the Greinke trade and Corey Hart was moved permanently to 1st, it was too little too late. These moves should have been made a lot sooner and I was calling for all of them (with the exception of Segura was was not on the team yet) the second the injuries occurred.

There's so much more to get into and I will expand on those ideas later but I'm going to save that for the Offense and Pitching articles. Referencing back to my 2012 Overall Predictions article that I posted on March 22, here are some of the predictions that I made:
  • The Brewers will finish with a 90-72 record, once again winning the NL Central and returning to the Playoffs for the 2nd year in a row. The Brewers finished with a 83-79 record (3rd place in the NL Central) and missed the playoffs, missing the 2nd NL Wildcard by 5 Games.
  • Cincinnati Reds will finish 2nd, St. Louis Cardinals 3rd, Chicago Cubs 4th, Pittsburgh Pirates 5th and in their last year in the NL Central the Houston Astros will once again finish dead last. The Cincinnati Reds finished 1st (97-65), St. Louis Cardinals were 2nd (88-74), Pittsburgh Pirates were 4th (79-83), Chicago Cubs were 5th (61-101) and as expected the Houston Astros were the worst team in baseball and in 6th place (55-107).
  • The Brewers will once again easily draw over 3 million fans and flirt with the all-time attendance record. Despite a rough start the Brewers drew 2,831,385 fans which was good for 11th in MLB and beating out cities with better teams (record-wise) like Cincinnati, Washington and Atlanta.
  • The Brewers will send 3 players to the All-Star game in Kansas City - Ryan Braun, Zack Greinke and either Corey Hart or John Axford. Ryan Braun was the only Brewers player in the All Star Game but one could argue that Zack Greinke (9-3 record, 3.32 ERA) was snubbed. Corey Hart wasn't anything special and as we all know, John Axford was God awful.
  • Brewers fans will have completely forgotten about Prince Fielder because they will finally come to the realization that pitching and defense win games (not Bill Hall). They will also become more educated on the small ball aspects of the game such as bunting runners over and using the hit and run due to the lack of spectacle of the long ball. The Brewers offense was outstanding and they led the league in homeruns, so fans still dug the long ball. But under manager Ron Roenicke they also led the league in stolen bases and utilized the suicide and safety squeeze bunts more than I've ever seen.
A lot of credit has to go to Ron Roenicke and Doug Melvin for the work they did this season. Replacing Prince Fielder's production seemed to be nearly impossible, but Melvin signed Aramis Ramirez in the offseason and the 1-2 punch between him and Braun was as good if not better than the Braun/Fielder combo. Signing Norichika Aoki gave us the leadoff hitter we have been searching for and allowed Weeks to drop down in the order where he belongs. The Greinke trade brought us our shortstop for the future along with 2 pitchers that might be a part of the team in a few years. And several pitchers that he drafted finally made it to the majors and performed well, which should quiet the whole "Doug Melvin cannot produce young pitching" talk. I've got no issues with him whatsoever as a General Manager and I hope that he sticks around for some time because in my opinion he is one of the best in the game.

Another move that Melvin made prior to the 2011 season was hiring Ron Roenicke. In 2011 he led the team to 96 wins but that wasn't enough to impress a lot of critics of this first time manager. Most people would say that with the offense, pitching and shut-down bullpen that the Brewers had, he could have fallen asleep Ken Macha style and managed on autopilot. When the team struggled in 2012 the doubters pointed their fingers at Roenicke and said that he was the wrong man for the job. Those people are wrong once again. It is often in a time of great struggle that you are able to see a person's true character and this season we saw Roenicke as the kind of Manager who could rally his players to a 36-23 record over the final 2 months of the season to lead his club to a winning record. For those of you who don't think that was a big deal consider that they were 12 games under .500 as late as August 19. To even be in the playoff conversation until the final week of the season is nothing short of amazing. The Brewers could have totally mailed it in and faded away quietly into the night, but they instead turned it into a playoff chase. That kind of mentality starts at the top with Roenicke and trickles on down to the other coaches and the players. He sets the pace for everyone and I am more than excited that Melvin extended his contract through the 2015 season if they pick up the option on the last year. At this point I would expect to have him around beyond that because I for one believe that he has proven himself worthy to lead this team. And he also seems like a perfect fit for not only these current players but also the ones that will move from the minors to the majors in the next few years.

I know that I wrote a whole lot of things here so I apologize if your 4th Grade Reading Level doesn't allow your small brain to process all of this information. If that is the case I bid you adieu and I thank you for giving my site another 'hit' and my ego another boost. If you possess the intelligence to follow along with these words that are cleverly strung together to form complex sentences, then make sure you come back for more over the coming weeks because we are just getting started man. Within the next few weeks we are going to be breaking down the players on both sides of the ball and comparing my preseason predictions to their actual final stats. For me this is one of the most fun things that I do in a given baseball season because it allows me to test my knowledge as a Brewers fan. I'm not going to lie - it is going to get weird and I may take my pants off. If that sort of thing gets you all hot and bothered like Rock reminiscing about catching Juan Nieves' no-hitter then make sure you come back for some more. I might even throw in Robin Yount's UD (unnecessary dive) for good measure to close it out and preserve that shit longer than a jar of strawberry jam.

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Wednesday, November 14, 2012

The Drive to Stay Alive - Ep 3 - Out of Time, Out of Love

So far this thing has been emotional and gotten me a little fired up at times, but this next episode is like you have never heard me before. I don't really want to get into it too much (because I'd much rather you listen instead of me giving away all the meaty bits) but I do breakdown a little bit and lose control of my emotions. If you are one of those sons a bitches who like to laugh at train wrecks well then you've come to the right place. You'll be excited to hear that I lose all control at one point and I needed to collect myself before moving on. Hope you get a good belly chuckle out of that one you heartless bastard. But if you are one of those people who actually have a heart then you will probably be surprised at how emotional that I get and you'll probably want to reach through the computer screen and give me a hug. Or not. Look, I have no idea how you are going to react to this or even if you are listening to this shit at all. Because I spend most of my life sequestered away from the general population I don't get any feedback from people regarding my multiple ventures. But I do know that this so called attempt at personal therapy does have some kind of purpose, but I'll let you be the judge by listening to this week's episode below.



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There's a lot going on in my life right now and obviously there is a lot on my mind. If there wasn't then I wouldn't have anything to talk about. If that happens then I no longer have a podcast. Where would we be without that? This thing is helping me to work out some issues both at the time I record it and a few weeks later when I listen back and reflect upon what I said and reassess my current situation. I'm hoping to grow and change with every week that I'm doing this but there is no way to judge it until I'm 2 months in or something. So until we reach that point I'm going to keep cranking these things out every week. Make sure you keep checking back here if this sort of thing tickles your fancy. And if it doesn't then why are you still here? Leave me! I don't need you! I'll get myself a new best friend! So go ahead! Go back to your fancy cars! And your big bank accounts! And your celebrity friends! And your beautiful women. And Victoria Silvstedt, Playmate of the Year... Fuck!!

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Friday, November 02, 2012

The Drive to Stay Alive - Ep 2 - Nuclear War / Acts of God

I introduced you to my solo podcast "The Drive to Stay Alive" during Day #4 of Go Bananas but in case you didn't catch that let me give you a little recap on what I'm trying to do here. My drive to and from work is the worst part of my day Monday-Friday. On the drive there it sucks because I know that I'm going to be spending the next 8 hours doing something that doesn't help me in any way except for a steady paycheck. And the drive home is agonizing in a different way because I can't wait to just get there so that I can satisfy my need to be creative and have an output for all of the ideas that are swirling around in my head. I take those ideas and develop content for pookon.com, this blog, The Daily Burner, TimReck.com and any other project that I am currently working on. That does solve a rather large need in my life to create but there are a lot of other thoughts, feelings and emotions that I just don't know what to do with. That's where this podcast comes into play. 

I don't normally talk about real life. I prefer to be more entertaining with silly stories and goofy things that I think about when I'm drunk. But my ability to come up with some really creative positive things also allows me to come up with some dangerously terrible things and sometimes puts me in a dark place. I'm hoping to use this as a therapist of sorts and talk out a lot of my worries and issues. But why record it and share it with you? I don't know really. I guess exposing myself to an audience makes it real and holds me accountable for my actions. So if you feel like hearing my opinion on things like trying to find a reason to live and figuring out my purpose in life, go ahead and take a listen below. Hopefully I manage to entertain as well as give you something to think about as you come along for this journey. It's going to be one hell of ride as I search for a reason to keep living.

In Episode 1 I kind of provided an overview and hit on a variety of topics as I introduced the reason why I am doing this. Today's Episode allows me to focus on another topic altogether and I bring up the question if I really even want to stay alive. Is life worth living? Sure, I bet I'll find a good reason somewhere along the way which brings me joy and happiness. But life is also shrouded in darkness as I address things like terrorism and acts of God which make the future look bleaker by the day. Nuclear war is a threat that we may have to face in our lifetimes and I hope I never have to deal with the eradication of millions of human beings in a careless act of war. But later I decide that an act of God like the recent Hurricane/Super Storm Sandy is more likely to happen as God tries to punish us for our wrongdoings. Look, I'm not doing it justice right now so just do yourself a favor and listen below.



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I've got a million things to say and as life keeps throwing more curveballs and me I'll have to figure out a way to lay off of them and wait for that fastball down the middle so I can drive it out of the park. Sorry, that's just the baseball geek in me coming off of the bench for a few innings. But that's my way of saying that there will be plenty of more topics for me to address in the future so keep checking back every week for a new podcast and all of the other content that I post on this blog. I'm nothing without the love and support of you, my family and friends, because you provide me the adventures in life that give me something to talk about. So in a way you are keeping me alive by providing me with some answers to some of my questions. But there will always be more questions so stick around for a little while, ok? 

 - pookon -

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